NEW YORK (FinalCall.com)--These are the best of times; these are the worst of times for two New York City grandfathers who lost their sons at the World Trade Center on September 11, 2001.

The best of times are represented in the births of grandchildren after the attacks. Keith Alexander Glascoe II, now four months old, will never see his dad, fireman Keith Glascoe, score a touchdown for the NYC Fire Department football team. Yahya Gooding, born last October, will never have her diaper changed by her dad, Calvin Gooding, a financial trader for Cantor Fitzgerald. Both fathers were 38-years-old at the time of their deaths.

"I am very proud of my son, he is my hero," Calvin R. Gooding, 70, told The Final Call, as he fought back tears.

The story of his son has been retold in various publications�how he married the girl of his dreams after seeing her photo on the wall of a Queens, New York, barbershop in 1996. He finally met her in a club and LaChanze Gooding, who is an actress, said yes to his marriage proposal two years later, in 1998. They also have a two-and-a-half year old daughter, Celia Rose.

"She constantly asks me when will her daddy come home?" Mr. Gooding, the grandfather, revealed. "I tell her that her daddy has gone to heaven, but what happens when I have to tell her why he died," Mr. Gooding said.

Mr. Gooding explained: "My son was a hard worker and a good husband and father. Now, I hear that the government may have known that there was going to be an attack and they did not try to stop it. That is why I am angry. "I want to sue the president, the FBI and anyone who may have known," he said.

Finding it difficult to discuss, he quickly changes the subject, explaining that Calvin has a twin sister, and that they are the oldest of his five children.

Mr. Gooding, a native of Panama, moved to Springfield Gardens, a middle class neighborhood in Queens, over 40 years ago. He said he raised his children to understand that they had a purpose in life.

Mr. Gooding speaks proudly of the tribute to Calvin that occurred in montepelier Park on August 17. More than 2,000 people came out, he said. According to Mr. Gooding, Calvin coached and sponsored local basketball teams and sponsored college scholarships for neighborhood children.

"It was a joyful feeling hearing all those people saying good things about my son," he said.

Mr. Gooding knows that Calvin would want him to go on with his life, so every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, he can be found in Roy Wilkins Park coaching the neighborhood football teams.

Ben Glascoe, 64, can also be found in his Brooklyn neighborhood, coaching children in football. At the recent dedication of the fire engine donated by Don King in Harlem, Mr. Glascoe was shaking hands and working the crowd, his pain and anger masked by a big smile and a warm "hello."

He wears a button with the photo of his son Keith and the two oldest grandchildren children, both Keith�s children, pinned to his shirt. He recently retired from his job with Con Edison, but said he would always remain active in the community.

A year after the terrorist attacks, the pain of Keith�s death has not subsided; he, too, is angry with the government.

"I do not say that President George W. Bush knew in advance of the attacks, but I believe that those around him knew and said nothing, hoping to use this to prop up an unpopular president," he said.

When asked to comment on the "War on Terrorism," he said it was too soon after his son�s death to talk in depth concerning such things. He said he is disappointed to learn that the Fire Department equipment was "not up to par."

He was referring to an official report detailing that the firemen�s radios did not work, and that the department knew because the same radios did not work when the WTC was bombed in 1993. He said he felt that people felt more vulnerable after the terrorist attacks.

Both grandfathers said they would not participate in any official government ceremonies on September 11, 2002.

"I will probably have dinner at my son�s firehouse on East 38th Street in Manhattan," said Mr. Glascoe.

Mr. Gooding said he would participate in a vigil in Central Park with his son�s company, Cantor Fitzgerald.